Bad Mommy Confessions (24 weeks, 2 days)

This mommy thing is going to be a lot of learning. For me, I think a lot of the learning will be in learning to let go of certain ideals. Right now, I am struggling with all of the things that I mean to do to be a good mommy and it's rough going. Allow me the opportunity to confess all of the things that I already feel guilty about:

1. Not taking my fish oil supplement everyday. It is supremely yucky stuff, especially when you take it straight from the spoon. The kind I have is ultrapurified, lemon flavored, probably keeps me regular and is supposed to make me and Sprout healthier and smarter. Still, cod liver oil! I conveniently left it at home while traveling last week because it needs to be refrigerated. It hasn't been opened in a week. I hear you can't taste it when you put it in yogurt or smoothies, but I am hesitant to flavor my fruit smoothies with essence of cod. Seriously, I think I might be heroic if I managed to do this everyday.

2. Not exercising enough. Okay, I have never exercised enough, but now would be a good time for me to be serious about it. Before Sprout, I was going to the gym a few times a week. Now, it is more like a few times a month. I am well intentioned and mean to do yoga at home or walk the dog, but it just doesn't happen very much. I also don't always do the exercises recommended by the childbirth class.
I know what the positive outcomes are if I do these exercises, yet I still struggle.

3. Being vigilant about my diet. This one is hard to admit and I'm a little defensive. I do get a lot of protein as a quasi-vegetarian. However, I don't know that I am vigilant about making it to 80 grams a day (twice what I needed before pregnant) and I don't know that I am always smart about controlling for fat or calories. Just because I am now entitled to some extra ice cream doesn't mean I should eat it everyday. Maybe. I do love that new Haagen Daaz ice cream with waffle cone bits in it, though.

These are my worst offenders though I could probably find more if so motivated. (Oh, like not drinking enough water everyday. Oh, and not writing to this site as much as I could. Oh, and not getting enough sleep during the week.) Don't worry about writing in with tips, though. My problem isn't a lack of knowledge, just of discipline and mindfulness. I know I am a little compulsive about these things and I know that everything will be okay, regardless of whether I get that spoonful of cod liver oil down. I'm thinking I might try to work out some behavior chart where a good week will earn me a treat like a massage or pedicure. I'll let you know how it goes!